Michelle Smiles

Teaching my children to question authority, except mine.

Got the mop?

November29

Sorry for the suspense…I was hoping to have good news to share with Blog Land today. Alas, not the case. The secret I’ve been keeping?

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I was briefly hoping this pregnancy might end differently than my others. Unfortunately not the case. I am 7 weeks today and the ultrasound showed no heartbeat. The doctor gave me the same spiel I’ve received each of the other times I’ve gone through this (felt rather Groundhog Day-ish) about how I might not have ovulated when I thought and it might be earlier than we think – yada yada yada. She scheduled me to come back in for a follow up but I anticipate this will resolve itself before that is necessary.

I’m okay – really. Having Sabrina makes this easier than my past miscarriages. We weren’t trying but we weren’t not trying either – it was a happy secret for a week. I wasn’t going to share at all if things didn’t turn out well…but hell, I blog everything else I knew I couldn’t keep it in regardless of the outcome.

Sorry to the my play group mommies that I missed today because my appointment went so long. I hope we can do it again soon.

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83 Comments to

“Got the mop?”

  1. On November 29th, 2007 at 6:14 pm Cindy Says:

    Ugh! Ok, well… I’m not going to tell you ‘I’m sorry’ just yet. I’d rather just cross my fingers and my toes that things are different for you this time. So… I’m going to be hopeful and optimistic for ya until you tell me differently. *hugz*! and lots of them!

  2. On November 29th, 2007 at 6:39 pm Ellie Says:

    CRAP CRAP CRAP….

    (((((((((HUGS))))))))))

  3. On November 29th, 2007 at 6:42 pm Emily Says:

    I’ve been right where you are Michelle. You seem to handle it like I did. Hopefully, things will work out in the near future. If I’ve heard it once, I ‘ve heard it a thousand times “once you adopt you’ll end up pregnant”. Like the last 4 years of trying will miraculously cumulate in a pregnancy now that Myah is home. Here’s to wishful thinking!

  4. On November 29th, 2007 at 6:47 pm Orodemniades Says:

    I’m so sorry.

  5. On November 29th, 2007 at 7:11 pm elle Says:

    The fact that I’m comment #55 should show you the support you have in this world. I am so sorry that it happened again babe. Know that we all love you.

  6. On November 29th, 2007 at 7:13 pm Andrea Says:

    I am sorry. I will keep you all in my thoughts and prayers! Hugs to you!

  7. On November 29th, 2007 at 7:15 pm Tam Says:

    Oh no, oh no…I’m so, so sorry Michelle. {{{hugs}}}

  8. On November 29th, 2007 at 7:17 pm Rachael Says:

    So sorry to hear your news.

  9. On November 29th, 2007 at 7:28 pm kelly Says:

    oh…I am so sorry. I’ve been there, too. It doesnt matter though…it still sucks. Love to you and Steve.

  10. On November 29th, 2007 at 8:01 pm tonya Says:

    It was nice to chat awhile with you. I am sorry Michelle. I was thinking about you today. Damn.

  11. On November 29th, 2007 at 8:02 pm Gibb Says:

    Well doesn’t that suck. I’d offer you tequilla, but I’m going to wait until we know for sure that your doctor isn’t right. Take care of yourself.

  12. On November 29th, 2007 at 8:14 pm Ericka Wright Says:

    I am sorry Michelle! I have never experienced this before, but i will be thinking about you….we missed you today, i hope to see you and Sabrina soon!

  13. On November 29th, 2007 at 8:23 pm Deb Says:

    Michelle,

    I am sorry for this sadness.

    Love to you,
    Deb AKA Momma Bug

  14. On November 29th, 2007 at 8:35 pm Kerry Collins Says:

    My thoughts and prayers are with you. So sorry for your loss.

  15. On November 29th, 2007 at 8:57 pm Crystal Says:

    Is extreme swearing allowed on your site? There must be huge, complex emotions right now–too huge for me to say anything wise in a few lines.

    But I am thinking of you…

  16. On November 29th, 2007 at 9:04 pm irshlas Says:

    {{{Michelle}}} Condolences to you and the family. Truly, thinking of you.

  17. On November 29th, 2007 at 9:07 pm Jennifer Says:

    (((((HUGS)))))

    Praying for you and your family. Sorry for your bad news today:(

  18. On November 29th, 2007 at 9:30 pm Andrea Says:

    Michelle-
    I’m so sorry. Take time for yourself and hug on Sabrina.

  19. On November 29th, 2007 at 9:47 pm Kim Says:

    Like everyone else, I’m so sorry. I wondered if that was going to be your news. I’m sure having Sabrina home with you does make it a little easier – but it’s still a loss. I’ll be praying that the doctor’s yadda yadda yadda just might be right this time.

  20. On November 30th, 2007 at 1:53 am cindi Says:

    been there a few times too. no fun at all. best thing i got from therapy was the shrink’s perspective that with miscarriage, unlike other passings: “no one brings over a lasagna”. i guess that was her way of saying that these types of losses go unnoticed relative to others, but not by you and steve, of course. i am sending you the yummiest, cheesy virtual lasagna tonight. so sorry…

  21. On November 30th, 2007 at 8:05 am Mama K Says:

    (((hugs)))

  22. On November 30th, 2007 at 8:11 am Julie Lussier Says:

    OH Michelle, I am so sorry for your loss.

    Hugs to you. ((((((((big hugs from Texas))))))))

    Jules

  23. On November 30th, 2007 at 8:31 am Rachel Says:

    I’m so sorry…hugs! Take care of yourself.

  24. On November 30th, 2007 at 9:22 am Terry Says:

    I’m so sorry! Many prayers for you and your family!

  25. On November 30th, 2007 at 2:54 pm Dirkey Says:

    I’m so sorry Michelle, sending hugs your way.
    🙁

  26. On November 30th, 2007 at 8:47 pm ali Says:

    this is my first time here…i’m so sorry. {hugs}

  27. On November 30th, 2007 at 11:49 pm Holly G. Says:

    Michelle, I’m so so so sorry. This is one of the times that I just don’t know what to say except that I’m sorry.

  28. On December 1st, 2007 at 7:28 pm Natalie Says:

    Michelle,

    I just wanted to add my “I’m sorry” to all the rest. I am a faithful reader of your blog (just not a frequent commenter) and I had to chime in. Sending up a prayer for you now!

    Natalie

  29. On December 2nd, 2007 at 10:38 pm Kate A Says:

    Hey, Michelle. Just wanted to say I’m really sorry. And this just plain old sucks. I can think of better words for this, but they’re not very lady-like. I hope you had a weekend holed up together at home to spend some time together.

    Kate

  30. On December 2nd, 2007 at 11:10 pm Cheri Says:

    Oh Michelle, I’m so very very sorry. Like everyone else, I wish there was something I could say to help. I do hope the joy of sweet Sabrina eases the pain. Be gentle with yourself. Lots of love from Antigua, Cheri

  31. On December 3rd, 2007 at 12:20 am artsweet Says:

    Oh craparoo. I am so sorry.

  32. On December 3rd, 2007 at 10:31 pm starfish Says:

    I’m a little late here…but wanted to say I’m sorry too. It’s just not fair. Hugs to you.

  33. On December 4th, 2007 at 12:25 pm Teri Says:

    I am so sorry. I have no words.

    Sending you my prayers.

    Teri